Less than a week to go!

Hello once more!

The start of the tour is good, it´s nice to see Gina again.. at least she will be with us during the next 2 months, until the sweet Emily has 2 years old so the adoption papers for Kyo and Lars can be done. I feel sorry to see her leaving us and her daughters. At least my baby will have cousins :)

Great news today! I´m full of great news:
1. Baby. This is the last week of pregnancy, I´m already a biig ball full of joy, its hard to sleep and I get tired so fast, but I cannot wait any longer to have her in my arms and see her beautiful face, we´ll be parents! 

The doctor said she´s fine, will be a good birth, all is set and maybe my baby girl will be born in Sofia, Bulgaria. 

2. Longlost father. He finally answered my letter! He´s happy to met me and can´t wait to hug me, I feel so relieved and full of hope now that I found him! My baby will have a grandpa! I love you Daddy! but he also has a new surprise for me. I have a sister! I want to meet her!

Thank dear Kobe for all my blessings!

Longlost father and new parents on the way.

Ronny told me the other day he saw at the forums the guy that my mother was dating when she died.. something inside me said: "Hey Gudrun, that man is probably your father!". So I decided to write him a letter.

I took some paper and pen from the Ronny`s desk (Finally we were in Stockholm!) and started to write him about my mother Anniken and me, the letters ran fast on the page, and I went happy to the mail office to send it. My dad... Goran- Sven .. wow!

After 3 or 4 days he still doesn`t answer... I think he doesn`t remember mother </3 I think that`s a harsh answer telling me he doesn`t want to be my father. 

For now I have to focus on my baby (Erin!) and the new tour, we started today, once more. And the other band`s focus it`s Lars and Kyo, they became parents today! That`s because sadly Gina is abandoning us and she wanted to give her girls to them. Lars is so crushed that I fear a deep depression. I hope the girls 

will light him up a little, and Kyo of course. It`s 

sad to see a friend leaving.

Good luck dear Gina, you will be very missed.

Too much feelings for now.. world is weird.

And the doctor said...

And I can´t believe it1 I´m so happy right now! It was a great thing to be at home again :)

A thousand doubts

My pregnancy reached half of the normal time. I feel full of energy, being at tour seems not so awful as I thought, but the band hired another drummer for the restof my pregnancy, I can play violin in the shows :)
Ronny has been very special in these days,  it doesn't matter if he's not the biological father of the baby, he will be his/her father for life. 

Tomorrow is my ultrasound test but I think I'll cancel it, getting the surprise of the gender of the baby at birth will be thrilling! Sometimes I feel I need a real friend to support me in these wonderful process, Gina doesn't talk to me, but imani can help me, she's pregnant too and maybe our babies will be born the same day! ♥ How cool is that? 
I love you so much my baby!  We are waiting for you!

Pregnancy 1/3

Hello once more!

My pregnancy so far has been amazing, just thinking about a little baby is growing inside me makes me very happy. The part I hate is the feeling of being sick every morning, I can´t stand certain smells, and the travelling on our bus tour is not the best, even all in the band agreed to hire a personal doctor to take care of me 24/7.They are so toughtful, it made me cry a little, all are helping me more than ever, and this makes me feel relieved and supported, I have the best friends in the world!

Now let´s talk about the really important matter: The baby! As the 1/3 part of the pregnancy has already passed, my belly is kinda visible now, and the baby is becoming spoiled already, every night Ronny sings for him and plays guitar. Yes, you readed right, him. I think it´s a baby boy. Ronny and I want to name him Stephan or Jared, both cute names. We chose them from a book of names Lars gave us. Maybe we will choose another one later. The doctor said the baby is growing OK, and draw me the line for the new mommy diet :) 

I still don´t know if I want an ultrasound check... this can tell the gender of the baby. Ronny didn´t say a thing about this either, maybe I´ll ask him along this week. I only want this tour ends ASAP! I wanna go home to have some quality time with my precious baby! But for now, Arcane Kiss must keep on blowing our fans minds every night! 

The singing cactus

Some gossips around the world said there was something special in the desert outside Johannesburg. People were talking about miracle pregnancies, persons that appeared to be younger, and with more experience in life, all out of nothing, well... that wasn´t nothing for me. Let me tell you.

Ronny told me we should jump off the plane we took to Barcelona with the parachutes we found somewhere. I didn´t want to jump but he was sure we would be okay, so I believed in him, hold his hand and jumped .....

Oh Kobe the view was amazing! I felt sorry leaving my camera at the tour bus. There was the magical desert opening his big arms wide, welcoming a new explorer on his hot sandy skin. After I landed i tried to find Ronny but was impossible. He said we needed to find some shrine or something magical, so the long walk started. 

Some hours..? of walking, I´ve heard a voice.. maybe I was dreaming already and the goddess was saying me hi in paradise..? hmm no, the voice told me I needed a magical chant.. but I found a gun.. I had no choice.. Keep walking Gudrun!

The sun was burning my skin, I was so thirsty! why did I came here in the first place?? Next time I see Ronny I´ll kick him! (I hope I can see him again :( I feel so lost here!) Just in the moment I was thinking about him... I tripped with a small box, has strange symbols all over...oh Kobe, it was so precious! Let´s see what it´s in here. 

The box is open, it´s a musical box! The sound was so relaxing and happy,,, and hypnotic. Slowly my eyes felt so heavy, before I fell asleep I noticed my hand was looking for something in the bag!

Next think I´ve heard was a lound noise, I´ve pulled the trigger! Then out of nowhere there was a path in the middle of the desert with big and beautiful trees, and at the end of the path I saw a fountain!! 

After running and walking for 10 mins I arrived at the fountain, Kobe welcomed me in her stunning shrine. Oh Kobe thank you for rescuing me from the hot desert, my clothes were full of sand, my skin was burned, my hair was a mess and I was so tired.. 

Then Kobe spoke.

She offered me different gifts, but I didn´t listened the others after she told me I can get pregnant. I wanted to be have a baby some years ago, and there was my brilliant goddess blessing me! The singing cactus appeared in front of me, one of its needles picked me, then Kobe said I´ll have a musical baby! Then I fell asleep.

Ronny was calling my name when I woke up, at the J´burg airport, it felt like a dream but when I really see him I knew all was real, he was younger and he was saying it was because Kobe and that cactus... then I looked at my belly and learnt again, I´m pregnant!